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2024-06-22

I'm tired. I think I'll blah about my love life.

2016-2017 - middle school "girlfriend". we held hands a couple times
2020ish   - met a girl named Erika with whom I went on dates. one time I
            described us as dating (as in, we went on dates) and she freaked
            out over the idea of us dating (as in, a committed relationship)
            and that ended that. found out later that i dodged a bullet
2021ish   - high school "girlfriend". each other's Dirty Little Secret a la the
            All-American Rejects.
early 2023- talked with this creature on-line on whom I had a massive crush but
            ended it because I worried it would care too much about my constant
            risk taking
early 2023- first kiss (19 years old)
mid 2023  - talked with the creature again. lost virginity (19 years old)
late 2023 - talked with this girl, started dating her, eventually broke up
early 2024- broke up with the creature

I was very self conscious about being a hell of a late bloomer but am no
longer. I'm just not very much of a people person and my interpersonal
relations are few and far between. Some people really just aren't cut out for
steady relationships.

Finding out most people use "dating" to mean that they are in a committed,
probably monogamous relationship really messed with me. To me that was "going
steady", and "dating" was, like it says on the tin, going on dates. Now I use
"talking" to mean speaking romantically, but only in that meaning sometimes,
which is baffling to me but actually works in communication, and "going steady"
to mean in some sort of relationship.

I go out on dates with people I meet on-line pretty rarely. I met someone on
Tagmap and met them at a Whataburger and we sat in mostly silence for half an
hour, unable to think of conversation to make. Before that I went out a couple
times with the person that approved my Medicaid form but he kept feeling me up
without asking permission and it got on my nerves a lot. Then after those there
was a Space Force skid who was in title a cybersecurity analyst but didn't have
an opinion on the xz Jia Tan kerfuffle and didn't know much about UNIX or
programming. Really awful luck.

: more adventures running openbsd in qemu

This is slow as shit. How do I use QEMU as a hypervisor rather than aarch64-on-
aarch64 emulation?

$ qemu-system-aarch64 \
	-enable-kvm -M virt -cpu host -m 512M \
	-bios "$HOME"/Machines/QEMU_EFI.fd \
	-device rtl8139,netdev=lan \
	-device virtio-rng-device \
	-netdev user,id=lan \
	-nographic \
	-hda "$HOME"/Machines/obsd.qcow2

Boot times down to <1min from multiple minutes.

Serial console looks like shit. How do I SSH into this virtual shitbox?

<https://www.baeldung.com/linux/qemu-ssh-host-guest&rt;

# apt install bridge-utils
# brctl addbr br0
# brctl addif br0 eth0
# ip link set up dev br0
# echo allow br0 &rt;/etc/qemu/bridge.conf
# chmod 644 /etc/qemu/bridge.conf
# ip addr add dev br0 10.0.0.101/24

No dice on this so I give up.

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